Mar 30, 2009

An Agony of my Soul, Provoked by Emotions, Expressed by Words. It Has No Title

Today I died.
My body blackened like dry coal and turned into ashes.
But just when the soil began to absorb me into her earthly womb, a strong gust of eastern wind came about and lifted my dusty remains.
Then the wind told me his name was Shamal and took me on his airy wings to show me the world.
We flew above villages and cities, green meadows as far as the horizon goes and golden deserts. We went to places no human knows - above frosty mountain tops and wavy oceans.
We saw so much beauty, so much life all packed in this small blue planet. But in this flight my ashes slowly flew away and spreaded little by little over the face of Earth and I was no more.

Only my soul left, stripped and naked. There was no more me, I couldn't tell - there was no reflection in the mirror! When I looked down towards the glassy surface of a lake - I saw nothing but the sky above. Then fear struck. The wind was gone and I was alone. Alone and bare.
Emptiness filled the empty space I occupied. I couldn't tell if this emptiness dwelled only within me or if it encompassed the entire cosmos. But what was I? I was nothing. Nothing that could be seen! Yet, I felt. How can you have feelings without a nervous system?! Impossible. There are no emotions beyond the CNS. Yet, I was thinking. How can you have thoughts without a brain and memmory to hold them all?!
This can't be. My thoughts would rather disperse in space like the ashes from my body. But there I was, even though I was not me.

Then a ray of ancient photons passed by me with the most unbelievable speed and within an unspeakable fraction of an eye-blink I was able to ask them "Where are you coming from?". And they replied all in one voice, like a divine chorus "We come from the beginning of this Universe" and they took me with them.
They were heading towards the end. We flew across vast transparency of blackness as far as one could peer into it, we flew across billions of stars small and immense, across billions upon billions of galaxies and vibrating molecular clouds. Then pain struck. This unbearable nostalgy for this small blue planet, my home.
But I was away, so far, far away. There was no way back. So I took the pain with me and continued our flight together with the ancient light.
Then all the galaxies and all the stars were left behind in a tiny bulge of light at the center of this enormous blackness that filled everything. Soon enough there was nothing, completely nothing. I couldn't tell if there was anything, for it was all black and black was all I could see. Formidable, tremendous, all encompassing blackness filled with emptiness. Then the photons disappeared. Or rather dissolved into the darkness.
I was floating there in the middle of nowhere. Left alone, empty and bare. The pain left too. So I felt nothing anymore. Then a voice filled the void and told me "All that you see is nothing. It is not at all." I had nothing to loose, so I asked back "What are you then?!" and the voice replied "I am infinity. The negative existentiality that encompasses all!". "This is impossible. A paradox. It is not true!" I replied back and was prepared to be engulfed by the void forever. It was silent. Silent, dark and empty. "Are you.. God?!?" I cried out at the last of my endurance.
"You humans have so many gods, why do you need another?" A different voice answered. I was silent, for I knew it was true. "God has many faces and many names. Every single atom is part of God, but no single atom is god alone. The same goes for your small-minded human perceptions and all of your religious gods". "Then The God is above religions" I thought to myself, but my thoughts went aloud, for there was no brain to contain them in.
"It is pure Reality itself
you speak of" the something said and went silent. It was the deepest silence I have ever heard. Then I was torn apart and dissolved into the darkness.
I opened my eyes. I was home. I was again, but different. I had new eyes.
I was reborn.

Then I cried out to Knowledge with tears in my eye "Do you have to be so painful?!?" and it replied "Wisdom comes at a price".

Impossible is Nothing. And I am both. Let the wind of inspiration carry you!

To my subscribed readers: please, be patient! I think you will not remain disappointed!

And another thing, I wish to dedicate this post to the last man who broke my heart - Thank you for this inspiration, Vasile and So Long!!

Mar 24, 2009

Prelude to Albedo

the One: Why did the chicken crossed the road?
the Other: Because it wanted to know the other side of itself.
the Third: Why, is there more to you than can be seen?
the Same: And are you as shallow as a puddle on the street?!
Reflectivity: You are my mirror!
She again: I am afraid of the darkness!
the Darkness: You are in my possession!
the Moon: I am what I will!
the Sun (to the Moon): Is this possible, my love?
the Stars (to the Sun): And what is not [possible]!?
the Light: For me to fill-up the entire Universe??
the Universe: I was born from Nothing into darkness and
I journey towards the light.
the Nothing: I created all and all is encompassed by Myself. However,
what is this objective that asks so many questions?
the Chicken: To all of your questions the answers I shall find!
the Public: [in silent contemplation]

[ - End of scene - ]

[t h i n k]

Mar 19, 2009

There Is Something Hidden and Profound in the Depths of Human Mind, Something That Is Not Easily Accessible and Has Been Seen

By a Handful of Individuals. It Is the Source of Dreams and Creative Inspiration That Lives Within Us All.
But what is IT? What is this mind, this consciousness, this human psychology that is the source of all spiritual conception, all philosophy, religion and culture..?

We, the amazing human beings that have created an entire universe of knowledge and information... that we acquired via our minds. The human mind - this gate to the utterly divine. In this sense, all of the major religions project their concept of grand God-image outside the individual. Religions portray their gods in such a ridiculously naive human-like manner - god gets angry, jealous, loves and hates, feels all those human emotions, as if made of biochemistry. The funniest thing is that the god of one religion furiously denies the gods of all other religions, claiming The Only Cosmic Authority and expressing sympathy exclusively towards followers of his most-correct-version of religion.

But, if we all and everything in the cosmos live in one Universe [even though a multidimensional structure] and all humanity is one big familiy (the Genographic Project), and furthermore all religion on Earth has originated ultimately from our self-aware human minds and perceptions.. IF God ultimately is everything along with the whoole Universe herself and this beyond-universal energetic entity-like structure, the very Stuff of Reality that we all are made of has quite NONE religious preferences at all....... then aren't all religious-based conflicts, separation, dogma and ritualistics so utterly ridiculous!?

Let me tell you - yes, they are.
Humans have lived too long with old views and followed old traditions with little progress from within. So long in fact, that the psychological effects of religious behavior and mindset are grotesquely impairing the individual to a point where he or she actually become mentally unstable in one way or another due to religious practices.
This tendency of religious fanatism, that is in itself a psychological side-effect in a way, is only due to increase. And increase with progressive proportions if humanity does not raise its collective awareness and find a solution to this issue. And religion is a real issue for contemporary society, because it is based on emotions and human emotions when expressed by the masses can turn into an unstopable swirl of blind self-dedication to a passionate ideology. I presume you have noticed the complete lack of reason and even an effort for analyzing religious texts from psychological and semiotic perspective on the side of all the religious advocates.

Religion is an old social system that served as an emotional regulator, moral and judicial justificator and overall behavior guideline all interwooven with an array of elegant and very complex psychological perceptions, collective semiotic concepts and symbolism.. religion could be viewed as an amazing system that human mind devised to self-regulate itself and its mental stability, which is a crucial factor underestimated in many societies and generally on the whole.

People often prefer to accept psychological instability in its various forms as "within the average" and withing the average it is indeed, because most people suffer or had suffered different forms of depressions, neurosis, paranoia and all other kinds of psychologically incomplete states there are on the scales.
In fact, most people are in odds with themselves and suffer from inmost controversies and emotional issues in varying extent. Notice emotional, as human psychology is an emotional structure in its fundamental frame.
That is why I recently concluded that humans are much more emotional, than rational beings. The reason for this is the fact that we lack a deeper, more thorougher awareness and understanding of our psyche.. and psychology largely disregarded as a paranormal-like mutation of serious science that does computers, cell phones and cool gadjets that people use to still not be able to communicate well enough with each other so to finally find common grounds on collective issues, settle down and embark on a new path of a greater understanding and self-awareness towards collective advancement.
Though, it seems that humans are most collectively advancing on the battle field....... yeah, this was a sort of humour, didn't work out. All this senseless fight over religious domination that satisfies absolutely no god at all, but the human emotional indulgens and primitive perceptions. And all this drama unfolds completely beyond the conscious comprehension of those same humans. Amazing, truly amazing

Mar 18, 2009

The Size of The Universe - Teaser Video

Indeed we simply have no IDEA just how much really, really BIG the Universe is! lol